Chapter 152 - The Timing Is Uncanny
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Pan An had a break at this time of day—4 PM to 5 PM.
Since he only told his students to do a research since most of them are in their third year, he only met his class for 15 minutes after giving the instructions of the group research for curriculums in teaching per field of specialization.
With that, he was actually bored inside the faculty room, thinking about what had happened between him and Shu Xian.
It played in his mind as if it were in fast forward, making him close his eyes the moment he remembered that he hungrily kissed her, the girl reciprocating as well as she ran her hand through his hair.
The way she tugged his hair as they kissed actually felt good. It made Pan An think that it had been so long that he had kissed someone to make him feel this way—as if he had experienced it for the first time.
Pan An sighed and opened his eyes, pulled by his own thoughts.
'What's wrong with you, Pan An?' he thought, shaking his head. 'Shu Xian only told you what she was imagining and it turned you on like a switch!'
It's true—Pan An found what she said inviting. Who wouldn't? A pretty girl like her saying she's imagining herself doing his kink…
Pan An's hand on his desk turned into a tight fist. With his lips in a tight line as an idea that he didn't like passed through his mind, he felt slight anger course through his veins.
'If Shu Xian said this to other men and he took advantage of her, I wouldn't like it. What if we hadn't met and she acted this way to some other men? I—'
Pan An stopped himself from thinking.
Now that he realized that he's thinking way too much—thinking about her talking to other guys, he didn't like how childish he was imagining, making him slump on his chair, his hand on his forehead as he let out an exasperated sigh.
'Her interactions with other guys before and after me are none of my business. Shu Xian isn't mine.'
When he thought of this, he closed his eyes as he calmed himself down, wanting to think rationally.
'Why do I find this so troublesome? Why do I worry myself too much?'
Pan An then opened his eyes. The moment he sat back straight on his chair, he blankly stared at his desk that is piled with papers to check, sighing when he realized that he didn't start checking.
Since he had this free time, he decided that he'd check the activities he collected from the previous classes!
But since he couldn't keep Shu Xian out of his mind, he was obviously distracted, making him not even pick up his pen.
"Gaaaah…
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Pan An groaned, shaking his head. Thankfully he is alone in the faculty room at this time, making it easier for him to let loose of his frustrations without having to worry who's around him.
'I think Wang Fang's right,' he thought to himself, thinking quite seriously this time. 'I think I'm attracted to Shu Xian.'
Pan An's lips turned into a tight line. With him shaking his head as he realized that this may be sudden since they only spent a few weeks together, he thought that it might only be a temporary feeling because both of them live in the same house.
With him getting his phone, he immediately saw his wallpaper, a smile coming to his face when he saw how pretty Shu Xian is.
With his finger tracing her face, his smile disappeared slowly, making him put his phone down as another thought passed his mind.
'Since I kissed her all of a sudden… does that mean that I really find myself getting attracted to her? What the hell am I thinking and why am I worrying so much about this? It's like I'm not mature enough for my age to confirm.'
Pan An only had one relationship in his life—his love life with Ruo Xi.
He had most of his firsts with her and the love that he had towards her is unforgettable since he loved her for how many years.
However, with him suddenly having the attraction with Shu Xian, he couldn't understand what he was feeling…
If he's using Shu Xian as a substitute for his unforgettable feelings towards Ruo Xi… or if he's really attracted to her without even knowing too much about her.
Pan An sighed once more. He especially didn't like the first idea.
Shu Xian is a great girl and if he's attracted to her because he couldn't forget Ruo Xi, then it would be mean to Shu Xian since she had never fallen in love with someone else.
Heck, Pan An could even be Shu Xian's first kiss and he could be the first person whom she experienced having intimate interactions with!
'I should control myself or it may seem like I'm taking advantage of our closeness and with us living together,' Pan An thought, his eyebrows furrowing together. 'I have to further confirm my feelings. I wouldn't want her to get hurt because of me.'
The moment Pan An was about to keep his phone, his screen lit up, showing that he had a text from Wang Lei.
With his sudden text snapping Pan An out of thoughts, he immediately read the message, a smile coming to his face when he read it.
The text read:
"Hey… something's driving me insane. I'll pick you up for dinner.
"
Pan An grinned ear to ear, thinking that the timing is uncanny for them to have something that's driving both of them insane.
He actually liked the suggestion of his best friend, making him reply to his message immediately.
"Alright,
" he typed,
"See you later.
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