This chapter is dedicated to K_Larson_3236 for being one of the generous giver of gifts to my book last month of June. Thank you so much for the support and for the generosity~!

***

Yeah, I doubt, I doubt myself

And I'm too proud to ask for help

When you see me beside myself

I don't have to explain it, baby

Yeah, I'm over picking fights

And trying to mend it with a heart

Don't want to know that I'm not right

I know that I've been needy, needy

***

Shu Xian was actually not sleeping yet as she found her mind thinking too much. With her listening to one of her favorite songs,

"Feel Good

" by Gryffin and ILLENIUM, she decided to let her mind wander, thinking that it may help her sleep easier later on.

***

Yeah, sometimes I need someone to pick me up

Overdose my mind with the things I love

You can take me there

When my heart beats

When my heart beats free

***

Shu Xian remembered the conversation she had with her best friend, Shi Lian.

With both of them talking about what has happened to them recently, she suddenly contemplated about the moments she shared with Pan An, making her blush as she listened to the next stanza of the song.

***

Take my hand in the middle of a crisis

Pull me close, show me, baby, where the light is

I was scared of a heart I couldn't silence

But you make me, you make me feel good

I like it

***

Shu Xian remembered right here and then the moment when she had a heated moment with Pan An. With her putting both of her hands on her face, she couldn't help but blush, remembering how the kiss felt.

There is something eternal about the lips as much as the eyes, for they too are a passing point of soulful communications.

Shu Xian never quite figured out if the beauty of his lips was more their softness of their association with the words he spoke.

However, when Shu Xian felt his kiss, it's as if electricity coursed through her body, making her bite her bottom lip as she remembered how it felt.

***

Take my hand in the middle of a crisis

Pull me close, show me, baby, where the light is

I was scared of a heart I couldn't silence

But you make me, you make me feel good

I like it

You make me, you make me feel good

***

Shu Xian felt irritated with the part of the song which said

"you make me feel good, I like it.

" With her already stopping the song, she couldn't help but groan, already getting one pillow and embracing it.

"Geez… why am I thinking so much about this?

" she talked to herself, now her index finger touching her lips.

She found herself unable to forget the kiss that she shared with Pan An. She remembered how she was against the board a while ago, Pan An hungrily crashing his lips onto hers.

She remembered how her hand ran through his hair—their tongues dancing in each other's mouth. Suddenly, she thought and imagined how she looked like. With seeing how hot kisses are in movies, she thought if both of them looked the same.

It's the first heated kiss that she had with a guy. With them also not under the influence of alcohol, it made her feel embarrassed as the kisses that they had before were because of them being drunk!

"Aaaaah…

"

Shu Xian stifled her groan with her pillow. With her sighing as she turned her body to look at sleeping Wan Wan on the floor, she couldn't help but feel her heart beating in her chest, further talking to herself.

"What if I'm physically attracted to the professor? Isn't this going to be difficult since we both live together?

"

Shu Xian continued to think. With her turning to her other side, she closed her eyes and sighed, not talking to herself in her thoughts.

'I'm shy about the concept of love… and I'm obviously inexperienced about this. But why am I suddenly allowing Pan An and I to have these moments when we're not even in a relationship?'

At the same moment, Shu Xian snapped out of her thoughts. She heard the door opening, making her sit up abruptly, holding her breath as if she's afraid of being heard.

Sooner or later, she heard the main door close again, a man groaning heard afterwards as he spoke to himself.

"So much for a family reunion,

" Shu Xian heard, her room's door still slightly open that's why she could hear it.

'Oh, it's Pan An,' Shu Xian thought, looking at the time. 'It's almost midnight in a few minutes. He really did come home late.'

As she stood up to close the door, she saw a glimpse of his eye looking through her door, both of them surprising each other the moment they looked at each other.

"P-Pan An!

"

Shu Xian exclaimed, now opening the door to formally greet him.

"

You're home,

" she added, making the professor nod and give her an awkward smile, greeting her as well.

"Yes… and you're still awake?

" he commented, Shu Xian, nodding at him once.

"Yeah, uh… I couldn't sleep,

" she answered, both of them staring at each other's eyes.

Both of them had not said a word. Pan An looked at her and saw that she's wearing a fitted spaghetti strap and black dolphin shorts, showing her legs' flawless skin. With him averting his gaze away from her, he remembered how they lusted on each other a while ago.

"A-anyway… rest well,

" Pan An said, making Shu Xian conscious as she realized how Pan An looked at her.

"It's late.

"

"Uhh… yeah, you too.

"

However, both of them were standing still. Even though both of them already bode each other to rest well, they can't seem to avert their gazes on each other, making their heart race in their chest.

Looking at each other this way, made their hearts beat crazily in their chest. With Shu Xian's lips slightly parted, it made her look attractive with that soft blush on her face captivating Pan An.

With that, the professor took a few steps, Shu Xian, wondering why she isn't backing away. With both of them remembering the same memory of them kissing this morning, they looked at each other with longing in their eyes.

As if they read each other's thoughts, both of them inched in closer, Pan An now softly landing his lips on hers.