"I've always wanted answers as to why you suddenly left and why you suddenly ended everything. You never provided me any explanation. I thought seeing you again would make me want that—seeking answers to those questions. But now, you here before me, I just don't care.

"

"Simple. I'm acting professionally and I would just like to ask whether you're going to be escorted to the dean's office after my class because it's my break time after this and I don't want anything else to do with you.

"

Even though Pan An was right in front of her, Ruo Xi couldn't believe what she just heard! How can Pan An treat her this way when she knew that he was head over heels for her?

Was it really possible… for him to forget her throughout the years that she disappeared from the country?

She was certain that he wouldn't ever forget her!

But with him saying these words to her and with him acting this way towards her… it may really be true right now that Pan An had a sudden change of heart.

"Pan An…

" Ruo Xi said his name again, her lips trembling.

"Am I not the woman you want anymore?

"

The professor scoffed. With a mocking grin on his face as he couldn't help but roll his eyes at her, Ruo Xi felt that she had said something stupid before him!

It made her feel like a fool for seeking him out only to be treated this way!

"Listen to yourself,

" Pan An retorted, crossing his arms in front of his chest.

"How can you ask me that after you have left me? Do you think that I would continue loving you with the pain that you've caused me—not even bothering to explain?

"

Ruo Xi's body trembled. With her tears now uncontrollably escaping her eyes, oddly, she found herself calm before him, another scoff coming from Pan An's mouth.

"As if you crying before me would help. It won't.

"

With a disappointed shook of his head, he let out a sigh, now looking at Ruo Xi with condescending eyes.

It's as if he had never loved her at all—surprising even himself when he gave everything to her back when they were still together.

Sometimes when he thought that he wouldn't get over her, her being in front of him has proved him wrong.

He did get over her without him even knowing. Even though the memories of the past haunted him and that he thought of her from time to time, now that she's here in front of him…

It's as if all of those were swept away.

"Do you have anything else to say? If none, we leave it as this—I'll escort you back to the faculty once classes have ended.

"

As Ruo Xi didn't say even a single word, Pan An took it as a signal that there is no more to talk about.

However, the moment the professor turned his back against her to leave the room, Ruo Xi widened her eyes, catching him by the wrist.

Pan An arched a brow at her as he turned his head to face her. With Ruo Xi's hand tightening, Pan An furrowed his brows, wondering why this girl couldn't seem to let him go.

"What now?

"

"I came all the way back here… just for you.

"

The way she said it made Pan An hear her voice break. With her forcing herself not to cry, the professor almost felt how sincere her words are, making him feel a slight ache in his chest when he already felt proud of himself for not feeling anything.

Why feel something for her—even in the slightest—now?

"And?

"

Pan An just said, the snappiness still evident in his voice. With Ruo Xi raising her head to look at him, she answered him, her words firing straight to him like a bullet from a gun.

"I can't stop thinking about you during all those years that I haven't seen you.

"

Pan An's eyebrow twitched. If he loved her still, he would be happy about that. But hearing this now, obviously he wasn't even in the slightest bit very thrilled about it.

Rather, he felt disgusted—as if someone had jabbed his stomach, making him want to vomit.

"Ruo Xi… if you truly ever loved me… then you would never have left me confused and broken.

"

What Pan An said was true. What he said was true, making Ruo Xi feel something painful in her gut.

However, she still hoped that she would get through Pan An's walls—hopeful that Pan An will still open up to her despite everything.

'He doesn't have to know the truth,' she thought, looking at him straight in the eyes. 'I know he doesn't believe whatever his mother could've said. I could still wrap him around my finger!'

With a sigh coming from her mouth, she released him from her hold. With her shaking her head as she embraced herself to look vulnerable, she spoke once more.

"How could I tell you everything… when you saw how your mother was so adamant to stop our engagement? Didn't you see the way she forced and threatened me?

"

Pan An didn't answer for a while.

What she said was true—it was one of the reasons why he also started hating his mother because she didn't want his relationship to go further with Ruo XI.

However, as years went on, he also thought that his mother couldn't have acted that way if she didn't know or see anything.

Why is it only now that Ruo Xi is here that he realized that he was so stubborn—even pushing away his family and even arguing with his best friend whom he knew that he also knew what's best for him?

Suddenly, right at this moment, Pan An suddenly had the courage and the urge to ask. With him crossing his arms in front of his chest again, he asked her a question that made her feel nervous since she didn't even think that Pan An would question her.

"Why were you there on the balcony with my mother and why was she so angry at you? She would never act that way without a reason.

"

'Tsk! Damn it!'

Ruo Xi internally clicked her tongue, her hands at the side turning into tight fists. She never thought that Pan An would ever ask about this from her. The moment she left, she knew that he would be so heartbroken—he would persistently look for her!

He did look for her, Ruo Xi knew he had looked for her. However, with Cai Li having powerful backers and with her threat, she knew best not to confront her son even though she wanted to.

She was caught cheating on him with his best friend! How could Ruo Xi risk her reputation?

She knew she had to play it safe—had to keep her distance. Of course, Hao Jiao Long also followed her in the process and she found comfort in his love and in his arms.

At first she found herself guilty for hurting someone so good like Pan An. She found herself guilty for cheating on him with his dear friend!

However, as it went on with him, it's as if she got used to it already—thinking that it's even normal to think of Pan An every now and then.

Heck, even when Hao Jiao Long bed her, she would fantasize about Pan An even though her husband is a better **er!

She thought herself insane for thinking so—she thought herself a bitch for even thinking and doing so!

But she couldn't help herself. She found herself wanting Pan An. She found herself craving for Pan An.

She sounds like a bitch and she knows it…

But she just couldn't help it.

She wanted more and she wasn't satisfied. She wanted more and she will do her best to get it even though it's in a form of revenge.

She wanted more… and she will desperately do anything to get Pan An crawling for her to come back.

"Well?

"

When Pan An spoke again, it snapped Shu Xian out of her thoughts. With a sudden idea coming to her mind, she thought of the most absurd thing possible, the words heavy on her tongue but she knew it might stir something from within Pan An.

"Your friend… Hao Jiao Long. He threatened me.

"

It's as if the blood from Pan An's face drained away. With him turning pale with the sudden inclusion of his friend with whom they can no longer contact, he didn't know what to say, nor how to react.

"What?

"

Ruo Xi tried her best to fight back the forming smirk that is tugging the corner of her lips. With her feigning vulnerability as she covered her hand to her mouth so as to hide her lips in order for Pan An not to suspect a thing, she said something that made sense to Pan An.

"Haven't you wondered why he suddenly left and why you couldn't contact him, too? It's because of what I said—he threatened me…

"