Chapter 235 - To Be Honest
There is something in Wang Lei's kiss that made Yu Yan find him irresistible. It almost scared her that she realized at this very minute that she had yearned for him, now putting both of her hands on his arms as if she sought for support.
The moment she had closed her eyes a few seconds ago made her heart flutter upon the realization that she sought solace in the presence and feel of the man before him.
Had kisses always felt like this? Or was it really different when it comes to having such a kiss with a specific person?
Yu Yan remembered right here and then that she had not actually kissed anyone before in her entire life. Back then when she was sexually assaulted by that wretched man, even he didn't kiss her when he had the chance to attack.
Now that she had experienced having a kiss, with Wang Lei even, she felt quite ecstatic and instead of having butterflies in her stomach, she felt dragons flapping its wings in vigorous power.
She wanted to stop because it was her boss giving her the kiss. However...
Why is it that she found it difficult to push him away?
It's as if her heart yearned for his affection without her even realizing it.
If people thought Wang Lei thought differently, then they're wrong. A womanizer such as him found it surprising as well that he had shown such hidden intentions towards a beautiful and gentle woman such as Yu Yan.
Heck, his employee even!
It had been quite long since he had kissed a girl. The last one was when he fooled with a woman who had recently called him, asking why she was being ignored!
But ever since encountering Yu Yan and with her displaying her power by her pulling his necktie and saying that no one was, is, and will be able melt her icy heart, she had been running in his thoughts for quite some time now!
Heck, he had even grown interested in her when she was not his typical type of woman! Since then he researched about her and her background and since helping her, she could not stay out of his mind!
And seeing Yu Yan in such a powerless state, her crying before him that made his heart ache, he just couldn't help but reach out to her and comfort her.
He wanted to say it through words. He wanted to tell her that she is doing a great job being Li Jie's mother and the child lacking a father does not state that she is doing less of a job being Li Jie's mom.
However, words were difficult to come out of his mouth and instead, he let one of his mantras control him right at this very moment.
Actions speak louder than words.
Wang Lei didn't know why. He could have proved it to Yu Yan in various ways that she is doing a great job and that she had nothing to worry about. However, a kiss was the one that overruled his judgments and before he even knew it, he had already placed his lips upon hers.
Compared to all of the kisses he had experienced, his kiss towards Yu Yan was completely different.
It was devoid of playfulness, a kiss that even made him feel like a young boy who had just experienced his first kiss.
It was the kind of kiss that made his heart race, the kind of kiss that sent electricity throughout his body.
Now even Wang Lei found it embarrassing that a confident and prideful man such as him felt worried if he was doing the right thing.
He feared that his action might scare Yu Yan and he didn't want that.
However, with her not pushing him away, with her closing her eyes as she reciprocated his kiss, with her putting her hands on his arm as if it gave her a sense of security and that he is doing a good job as a man...
He just couldn't stop as well.
Wang Lei gently snaked his arm around Yu Yan's waist, pulling her closer to him so he could feel her body against him. With Yu Yan raising her hand slightly to settle on his chest, Wang Lei felt how small and frail she was in his arms, afraid to break or hurt her.
Yu Yan felt her body heating up. She realized then that even as an adult and even though she already has a child, it was her very first kiss. It was one that she had not anticipated at all, making her feel like a teenage girl who had always yearned for it.
Even as a little girl, Yu Yan never experienced falling in love. Heck, even having a crush is too much for her!
Given her background of having only a mother to raise her since her father passed away at a young age, she assured herself that she'd study hard.
She always wondered what it felt like to fall in love. She wondered what it was like to have a date, what it was like to have her hand held, what it was like to be hugged, to be cherished...
She even imagined what it was like to be kissed.
She found herself foolish to think that right at this moment, she started to reminisce about her past!
Is it even possible to daydream like this when she is being kissed by a handsome and capable man such as Wang Lei?
Wang Lei then snapped Yu Yan out of her thoughts when she felt the tip of his tongue licking the line of her lips as if asking for entrance. Curious of the sensation, she shyly did so, her body slightly tense as it was a new sensation to her.
It was wet and at the same time... hot. However, what made the gesture feel different was the fact that it made her legs turn into jelly, making her cling on to Wang Lei's arm more as if hanging on for dear life!
"Mm...
"
She gasped and let out a soft mewl of pleasure when she felt his tongue touch hers. With her allowing Wang Lei explore, she found it easier to follow as if Wang Lei had been silently guiding her without even speaking.
And because of that, it had turned Wang Lei on. It was different compared to other women he had naughty experiences with.
Never did he expect that Wang Lei would consider her as a goddess-like tier, a woman who is able to turn him on with just a single, heated kiss!
How is that possible?
Wang Lei thought to step things up but he oddly felt scared that he didn't want to scare Yu Yan. And so, he slightly regretted it as he was the first one to break away from their kiss.
Wang Lei looked at Yu Yan, her face pink as her lips was slightly parted. She was heaving small, deep breaths as she stared shyly at his eyes, her hold still on him as she felt weak upon his touch.
How could silence be this comfortable after having their first heated kiss? With Wang Lei looking at her with gentleness in his eyes, it hid his brewing passion towards her, conscious if she would be able to discern his hidden, growing affections.
Wang Lei found himself mesmerized by Yu Yan's beauty.
Has she always been this beautiful? Wang Lei found himself irritated by the thought of him only realizing how tantalizingly attractive she is! He felt stupid as of this moment to realize it now!
Heck, why only now!?
"I... I'm sorry.
"
Yu Yan suddenly apologizing as she averted her gaze from him snapped Wang Lei out of his stupor. With him focusing on her, he wondered why she was apologizing, listening to her further statements.
"You're my boss and... I didn't know why I allowed you to kiss me. It shouldn't have happened.
"
There is something in the way she said her words that slightly hurt his pride. It was not something that he'd like to hear at all!
With his eyebrows furrowed, his grip around her loosened a bit, asking her what she really meant.
"Why? Why did you say that as if you blame yourself when I was the one who kissed you?
"
There was no answer coming from Yu Yan's mouth. Even though she was nervous before him, she courageously looked at him straight in the eye and answered his question.
"It would be inappropriate and difficult... since I have a son and you are my boss.
"
Wang Lei didn't like what he had heard at all! After experiencing such a wonderful, fluttering kiss from Yu Yan, she spoke as if she had regretted it!
"You... don't like it?
"
The question felt heavy on his tongue. He is a man who is sought for by all women, for goodness' sake! Of course it will hurt his pride!
However, what Yu Yan said next was one that he had not expected, something even better than what he feared the most.
"To be honest, I do like it... I just don't want to develop anymore feelings toward you as I realized that I am suddenly forming one for you now.
"