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n”Wifey.” Lei Zhao said softly cupping her face with his hands noticing the discomfort in her eyes. Yan Mei looked away trying to hide the emotions in her eyes.

n”I know you have been investigating me about my past but you didn’t find anything.” Yan Mei whispered weakly. “You must be curious about my past and my nightmares.”

nLei Zhao look at her and smiled embarrassingly, “Yeah I did, I couldn’t find anything about you.”

nYan Mei looked at her hands, “I came to city S because I wanted to start over and forget him.”

n”Him?” Lei Zhao asked, “Who?” Yan Mei bit her lips to stop it from trembling as she tried to mention his name. The name she has hidden deep in her heart.

n”Wang Lu, my ex-husband.”

n”Ex-Husband?” Lei Zhao widened his eyes as he asked.

nTears flowed from her eyes as she soon as she said the name came out from her mouth. It was a name she has grown to despise. A name that has caused her countless nightmares. The name that has made her lose everything, including her child and the name that has turned her into this devil.

n”Yes, remember I told you that love is a scam? That’s why I’m afraid to fall in love with you.”

nLei Zhao clenched her jaw and nodded stiffly.

n”I was married at the age of nineteen.” Yan Mei said looking at Lei Zhao with guilt.

n”I met him at a friend’s party. He was nice, sweet, the charming type of guy even though he had a cold aura that didn’t allow people to approach him.” Yan Mei said not noticing the jealousy brewed in Lei Zhao’s eyes.

n”He chased me for weeks before I accepted his proposal and we started going out. Everything was going well you know, he pampered and treated me right. I was happy with him until his crazy ex came, she made my life a living hell. I wasn’t strong back then and I was pretty naïve but as they say, love conquers all.” Yan Mei said as she chuckled humorlessly.

n”After going through a lot of trials together we finally got married.” She stated. He was really rich and there were a lot of girls that wanted him so I thought I would feel secure if we get married. My dad was against the idea, but my mother said as long as I’m happy she didn’t mind” Yan Mei gulped and wiped the tears.

n”His mother didn’t really like me she thought I was a gold digger. My parents weren’t super-rich, we were just an average middle-class family. But my parents gave me everything I wanted. I was a princess for my parents. My dad gave me everything.” Yan Mei said sadly remembering her parents.

n”His mother would verbally abuse me anytime she sees me and her son wasn’t around. At times too, she would intentionally hurt me. I never told him because I didn’t want to be the reason why a mother and son would fight. “

n”What!” Lei Zhao busted out in anger.

nYan Mei rubbed her hand on his own trying to calm him down. They were still sitting on the bench at the park but fortunately, there wasn’t anybody around.

nOne year after our marriage, I lost my parents in a car accident”. Yan Mei’s voice cracked at the end as tears started pouring from her eyes. Lei Zhao’s eyes turned from anger to concern.

n”It was my fault, they died. Wang Lu’s ex had gotten out of jail and in order to get revenge, she had cut the brakes from my parent’s car. If I hadn’t married Wang Lu as my dad said, she would’ve never targeted my parents to get back at me. She wanted me to live with the guilt, knowing that my parents died because I marry the man she wanted.”

nLei Zhao growled and hugged her tightly. “Shsss…..it’s not your fault. Don’t blame yourself.” He said as he placed a kiss on her forehead in reassurance.

n”It’s not your fault, his ex was a psychopath, your parents wouldn’t want you to blame yourself.”

nYan Mei smiled but the smile didn’t reach her eyes.

n”It wasn’t easy when I lost my parents but Wang Lu and my best friend Fu Xin was there for me. So I was able to recover from my grief. ” Yan Mei whispered.

nLei Zhao nodded, “You seemed to have a good relation with your husband what happened?” Lei Zhao clenched his fist as he uttered the word husband. He was burning with rage and jealousy inside but he listened quietly to her.

nYan Mei trembled and began to sob silently, “One night, he came home and…”

nHer voice cracked,

n”It’s okay if you don’t want to talk about it.” Lei Zhao said softly.

nYan Mei shook her head and wiped her tears, “You deserve to know if you want to leave me after knowing everything I won’t blame you.”

nLei Zhao pulled her into his chest, she heard his heart thumping against his chest as she leaned on his chest.

n”You hear that sound? That’s my heart beating for you, I don’t care about your past wifey, I only want you.”

n”Promise?” She asked softly.

n”I promise, wifey. I love you, no matter your past my feeling for you won’t change.” He said his voice full of sincerity.

nYan Mei nodded, “I found out I was pregnant on our second anniversary. I wanted to surprise him with my baby bump on his birthday which was a few months after the anniversary, so I got pretty distant with him during those months. I always made an excuse anytime he tried to be close to me. A day before his birthday…”

nYan Mei took a deep breath, “he came home angry and he accused me of cheating on him.”

nLei Zhao widened his eyes, “What did you say?” he asked cautiously.

n”No, of course, I didn’t cheat on him obviously! I loved him!” Yan Mei said angrily. She thought Lei Zhao believed that she cheated on Wang Lu.

nYan Mei saw the pain in Lei Zhao’s eyes and opened her mouth

n”I didn’t mean to….i thought you believe I cheated on him.” Lei Zhao shook his head. “It’s okay, I know it must be hard for you to open the scars you have buried for too long.” He said, his voice strained.

n”He didn’t even give me the chance to explain, he made me sign divorce papers and threw me out in the cold night. It was raining heavily that night too. I had nowhere to go. My best friend was in a coma and I had fought with my dad.”

nLei Zhao raised his brows, “Didn’t your parents die in a car accident?” He asked with curiosity.

n”Yeah, I grew up with my stepdad, I met my biological father when I was fifteen. We were pretty close.”

nLei Zhao frowned, he never thought his wife had such a complicated past.

n”I don’t know what I did for him to accuse me of cheating. That night I lost everything including my baby.”

nYan Mei tightened the grip on his shirt. Her tears dampened his shirt as he wrapped his arm around her body. “It’s okay. Everything would be okay.”

nYan Mei sobbed heavily, “I want to forget everything but I can’t.”

nLei Zhao held her, without saying anything. “I got hit by a car that night when I was crossing the road, I had no idea where I was going, All I remember was one second I was crossing the road, the next I saw a blinding light heading straight for me followed by an abrupt honk.”

n”It’s okay, don’t talk about it anymore.” Yan Mei hiccupped and buried her head in his chest. She gripped his shirt in her hand, tears continued to run down her cheek and soaked his shirt.

nThere was a cold silence, only Yan Mei’s sobs could be heard. Lei Zhao was shocked. The woman in his arms had gone through so much at such a young age. Nineteen, twenty years was supposed to a year where she had to enjoy her youth but life has been so cruel to her. Lei Zhao didn’t know how to react now that he knows her past. But he knew that he would never hurt her.

nYan Mei pulled away from him and stared at him, “I’m a bad omen, Lei Zhao. I cause destruction wherever I go. I’m doomed not to be happy. I can’t let you hurt too-“

nLei Zhao touched her cheeks with his fingers as he wiped the traces of tears that had stained her face. He looked deeply into her eyes and frowned.

n”Don’t say that you’re not a bad omen.”

n”But-“

n”If you are going to be my destruction, then I don’t mind.” Yan Mei felt her heart skip a beat when she heard him. How can he be so calm after everything she just told him.

n”You’re so unreal.” She whispered lowly.

n”How can you be so calm? Shouldn’t you hate me for deceiving you to marry a divorced woman?”

n”Because I love you and we are already married. You’re my everything whether good or bad. You’re mine.”

n”You’re crazy.”

nLei Zhao smiled softly at her, “Yeah, I am crazy in love with you.”

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/N: please add my new book, The Beautiful Monster to your library.

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