She sighed and sat down on the bed before taking Ye Liu and Shen Li’s hands in hers and calmly stroked their palms with the pad of her thumbs. ” I know, I understand what you are trying to say Li, I am sorry that I cannot understand the pain that the two of you are suffering though.”

Though she wanted them to understand their values as her husbands and mers who had far more worth than just having a child, she didn’t force them to accept her views, she couldn’t just scold them for being stupid and press her ideals on them. If she did something like that then they will only start hiding what they were feeling even more instead of telling her what they felt, they would believe that she didn’t want to understand them that was why she kept intercepting them asking them to let go and move on.

Sometimes it was better to let people cling on to false hope than to forcefully break the bubble in which they were living. She will slowly let them understand that they were better than what they believed themselves to be capable of they were definitely far more than just mers who could only give birth. She just needed to make them confident of what they are because even if she wanted to deny it.,.. she have to admit that her husbands were depressed.

The fact that their sole reason to stay alive till now wasn’t her but their desire to have a kid with her —— it kind of hurt but sometimes people who had nothing to cling on to would always hold on to one thing to survive. Her husbands loved her this was something that she knew but the fact remains that she could not give them her entire love and attention, they must have wanted a child to distract themselves after all no matter how kind they were, no matter how used to they were of each other presence….in the end they were human.

If she was in their shoes would she have been able to live a life like this? Happily smiling like nothing was wrong when all her life was centred around her husband yet knowing that the same couldn’t be said for her husband? She loved them, she really did but she couldn’t be there for them all the time, she couldn’t favour one over another.

What if despite being kind to each other, they were jealous of each other —— being selfish was something that was normal and she couldn’t blame them for it either. Can she even blame them for having a kid? They stayed at home all day long and even though she tried to keep them happy there was no way she would be able to keep all of them happy at the same time—— even though she was a spiritual energy user, she only had two hands, even if she used her entire body she might only be able to make two of them satisfied much less make them genuinely happy …as for the other two…

She felt her forehead ache, who … who was the one who said that having four husbands was a great thing? She was having a hard time keeping all of them alive, one of them was sick with fever, one was targeted by the culprit of the poisoning and the rest two were showing signs of depression.

Yu Dong rubbed her head, maybe by the time she got past this ordeal she will need to see a psychiatrist herself. She pinched the bridge of her nose and then took in a breath, no she cannot get annoyed right now —— she was their wife, if she was there to share their happy moments, she need to be there for them when they were in danger or were upset.

After she calmed down, she smiled at her two husbands and patted their cheeks. ” Don’t worry, I will try my best to treat you guys, even though I can’t miraculously treat you in a second, I promise that one day I will make you two carry your babies that you want so much.”

Though with her cultivation, it will be quite a feat for her … maybe she needs to start cultivating again, and maybe she will ask her grandmother to help her out as well. She wasn’t good with poisons but her grandmother was very familiar with them being a researcher herself before her death.

Shen Li looked up and so did Ye Liu, their eyes that were filled with nothing but darkness slowly lit up as they scooted closer to her and looked at her with an expression that was very similar to that of a child who was finally getting the desired Christmas gift that he wanted.

” Really? Dong Dong, you can do that?” Ye Liu clasped her hands as he looked at her with eyes that were reddened with grief and relief. ” You…you can help us? Do..don’t lie to us if you cannot do it then don’t lie to us… we will not hurt ourselves but please don’t give us false hope.”

Shen Li too stared at Yu Dong with a burning gaze as he whispered. ” He is right, Dong Dong. If you lie to us, we will never forgive you…you don’t need to give us false hope because we won’t be able to withstand it.”

Yu Dong breathed in as she flicked their foreheads.” What are you threatening me for, if I said that I will look for a way to heal you then I will surely do that don’t worry you, idiots.”