Chapter 233 - Answers
"Don't forget that? What does that mean?
" Valentina asked.
"That mean, you have accepted me to sleep with Rose!' Xavier answered and Valentina pushed him away from him.
"I did because, I trust you!
" Valentina replied.
"And so I. I trust you too... But what did you do?
" Xavier asked.
"First tell me... Who told you that, I have slept with Jason?
" Valentina asked.
"You so want to know who told me right? Then listen, Listen carefully...
" Xavier Answered making Valentina take a deep breath.
"Jason... Jason told me!
" Xavier said making Valentina eyes wide.
"What?
" Valentina asked.
"Unbelievable right?
" Xavier asked making Valentina blink her eyes.
"It sure is... Because he told me because, he doesn't want me to take you wrongly for keeping this away from me...
" Xavier answered.
"No... Jason won't do something like this without telling me!
" Valentina said making Xavier chuckle.
"But he did...
" Xavier replied making Valentina look at him.
She was about to walk out from him... But he grabbed her wrist and again pushed her towards the Wall.
"What about me, Valantina?
" Xavier asked as he looked into her eyes.
"You love him?
" Xavier asked looking into her eyes.
"You love Jason now? Did I lose you?
" Xavier asked looking into Valentina's eyes as tears rolled in his eyes.
"I am bad... I know that. I made you feel so bad. I made you feel disgusted on yourself... But, my love is true for you! It's not something that just bloomed... It something from years... It's the same love I had for you from the staring until now... Whatever I did but, my love never changed for you! It's always the true love I had on you!
" Xavier said as a tear falls down from his eyes making Valantina look into his eyes.
She slowly cupped his face and just kept staring into his eyes.
"I know, I am wrong. I know whatever I did with Rose hurts you the most. I know, you are the one who love me the best... But, I feel like I lost you... I don't want to lose you, Val... You were my life and you still are! You are my breath... I loved you and I will keep loving you till my last breath!
" Xavier said as he just kept starting into her eyes.
"Sleeping with Rose was the Hardest thing for me... She made me like that... If not her, I would have been yours. And only yours... I was forced, Valentina... I can't do this anymore... I need someone who loves me... And take my pain away from this world... I feel like stabbing myself in my heart than sleeping with her... But then, I remember you... I know that, you need me... You are my strength in everything I do! I thought, my day today isn't good... But tomorrow will be... With you!
" Xavier said as he kept staring into her eyes.
"I am really so sorry for doing this with you! I know, I am now not at all good for you! You can choose anyone you want... I won't show up in your life... Again... If you don't want me anymore... But, I am really so sorry for making you feel like this!
" Xavier said as he slowly falls down on his knees infront of Valentina as tears started falling down from his eyes.
"But... One thing is true and always will be. I love you, Valantina. My love for you is true. I loved you with my whole heart. I still only have you and I only want you in the future... If you leave me right now... I would never show up infront of your life ever... I promise, I would never! You are the only thing I wanted in my life since forever... And now, if you don't want to be... Then, I see there is no use of my life anymore... I will live my life like this from now... Forcefully. If there is no you, I don't think, I should keep any expectations with my life anymore... I think, this is how my life. I will suffer... Seeing you happy... If you are happy then I am too!
" Xavier said as he wiped his eyes and took a deep breath.
Xavier was devastated... He always loved Valentina. His love for her is always true. He did everything till now to just keep her in his life. He always wanted to make the dreams come true with the love of his life that is Valentina... But he was forced to do something that he don't want too. Just because of his family... He did that! He regret keeping secrets from Valentina... And his heart beating so fast while he waits for her answer... He for the first time, wanted someone to stay in his life! And love him.
If she said, it's over between them... Then the only way for Xavier right now is to just die... He doesn't see anything useful to live in this world anymore.
He only wanted her from the start... She was not a girl who is for love in the start. But he made sure to turn her into a girl that love him.
He made her trust him that he will never leave her... But he had to leave just to keep her happy in her life... But, he never thought things would turn this badly... But they did... Things started changing and it's started getting heavy for everything... They are so hard to handle... And now... Everything is going to scratched with just one word from Valentina that is just 'Over between them.'
Xavier is ready to just get up from there and walked out from there without talking anything. He is ready to leave her alone in this life and would never trouble her in this life ever...
"Xavier... Get up on your feet!
" Valentina said and Xavier shook his head in no.
"Get up.
" Valentina said making Xavier sigh.
"I will not, until you tell me your answer...
" Xavier replied making Valentina take a deep breath.