Chapter 0238 , ZAIA. , Please say this is a lie… , His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. , “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken. , Sebastian left me. , Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than , anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me , years ago. , It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling. , sound that makes my head want to explode. , I cannot breathe. , Sebastian… , “Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing. , Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. , The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to, do this? , I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why? , Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? , Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had. begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more. , Mom… Dad… Sebastian… , In the end, I failed. Just the way I am failing Sia and my people… , Why is the goddess doing this to us? , “You chose the wrong one! Why?!” I scream. “If you really cared… if you’re really out , there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug myself. , I feel so alone… I am alone… , I was the wrong person for this. I’ve tried… tried to do my best, but I’m not doing , enough… , Why did you make us for one another if your only aim was to rip us apart and crush , my strength? , Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to , fall for him again? Why did I unwrap my damaged heart for him?, He was my strength… he was the one who I had learned to forgive and not only did I , fall for him again; I fell for him all over again. , I don’t want to feel this pain… , I clamp my hands over my mouth, rocking myself as I try to pull myself together, but , I can’t. , He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. , Sobbing, I clutch at my aching heart, hurting so badly. , “Red…” Strong arms wrap around me, pulling me against a firm chest. , “He left me… again,” I whisper, a fresh wave of tears running down my cheeks. “I , can’t cope anymore. I’m tired, I’m so tired…” , “It’s going to be ok. We’re going to figure this out…” , How? , So many times I felt like he was saying goodbye… , Last night… he was saying goodbye, wasn’t he? , Mom… she’s gone too. , Dad… , 13 BONUS, I grip my head as it squeezes in pain. My claws are out and my eyes blaze with my , emotions. , “Zaia! Zaia, look at me!” , Someone forces my head to the right, and I think it’s Atticus, but it’s becoming dark. , “Sebastian, I want to talk to him. He needs to know that there are other options.” I , plead through my tears. , One last try…. because I didn’t give Mom a chance… , ‘SEBASTIAN! If you can hear me, please… please listen!‘ , I’m met with nothing but a wall and I cry out in desperation. , “Zaia…” Atticus’s voice fades away as my vision begins to spin and then, everything , becomes blissfully dark…. , Night has fallen and I’m sitting on my bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet , unable to feel it. Betrayed, yet unable to comprehend it. , How do I recover? , I hate showing the kids how I feel, but today I was unable to hold my tears back as I , hugged and kissed my babies, breaking into tears., They are my strength; they are the only strength I need, but how do I tell them their , dad has left them once again? , In the darkness of my bedroom, despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent.. , Self–doubt, self–blame, guilt, sorrow, pain, betrayal…. , And despite the storm within me, the only thing I know is, I failed. Failed everyone , and everything… , Sebastian is truly gone. , Mom is dead. , 15 BONUS , Dad is missing. , These are the facts that keep hammering at my soul. , I’m a failure… , Atticus was the one to find me and bring me home… once again, he’s the one who was there to pick me up after the man I loved destroyed me. , Why does love exist? Why does the mate bond exist when it only gives others the power to destroy us? , My heart hurts… , There’s a knock on the door, and I don’t move when it opens. There are three of them, and Valerie is holding a tray of drinks., “We thought you might need a little pick me up.” She says softly as she comes over, placing the tray down and kissing my forehead. , SURPERISE , GIFT: 3000 bonus free for you,activity time is limited! , Komentar, Search the website on Google to access chapters of novels early and in the highest quality.