Chapter 0364 , 15 BONUS , I walk over to the bathroom door, watching as she washes her face with soap and water frantically, even going as far as to gargle. , I turn away, feeling worse than I have in years. , What was I expecting? I don’t have much to offer. I’m a man without an education, a man on the run… a man working in a garage and at a construction company. She’s a doctor, she comes from a powerful pack, powerful friends and family… , We were always two separate sides of a coin… , Somehow it’s worse than when I was told my parents didn’t want me…. , She rushes past me and pauses at the patio door. She glances back at me, and all I can see on her face is guilt. , “This never should have happened.” Her voice is shaky as she runs her fingers through her half–wet hair. , “No, it shouldn’t have. You wouldn’t want anyone to know you had your tongue down a killer’s mouth now, would you?” I say emotionlessly, despite the storm within. “The Toussaint Princess is waiting. Go.” , “I didn’t mean…” she trails off as I walk over to the door placing my fingertips above her breasts and push her out lightly, she still stumbles not expecting that, but I stop myself from reaching out to her and instead shut the door and draw the, curtains. , I turn away, angry at myself. , What was I thinking? That she would somehow just accept me? , I grab a can of beer and open it, gulping it down. , “Zaia! Oh my god, you’re here! How?” Valerie’s voice reaches me as I drop onto the sofa, an uncomfortable weight in my chest. , “I had to come. You’ve worried me, Val.” , There’s silence for a moment before they begin talking and I know I shouldn’t listen, but I can’t help it. How is she able to pretend what happened never happened? , Because it didn’t mean anything to her. , 15 BONUS , What does it even mean to me? , I’ve never had anything in life to call mine, even the power I have been given was , for the use of others… , I place the empty can down, not wanting to disturb her, although the temptation , to smash everything in the room is real. I stand up and take out another can from the fridge and gulp it down. , It was a kiss or two, nothing more…, “Oh, my… who is this from?” Zaia laughs teasingly. , “No one! Zaia. Why would it be from anyone?” , “Because there’s a note and a tasty meal. Aww so cute! I have read many notes, and this one seems like it’s written by a handsome man.” She chuckles. , “Well, he’s nothing special, he’s just one of the few colleagues I met at the hospital. They’re really nice,” Valerie replies dismissively. , Nothing special. , I grab the few bottles I have in the fridge, but this is not going to be enough. I bite. the cap off one, downing it, letting the liquid burn my throat, but it does nothing. , “So, tell me about this ‘no one special‘.” Zaia insists and Valerie laughs. , “Zaia stop! Like I said, it’s just someone I know. Come on, tell me how are the kiddies? You should have brought them along…” , Standing up, I grab my jacket and keys. I can’t stay here and listen to any more of this. Not when the rock on my chest is suffocating me. I’m pulling on my boots when I hear the last thing I needed to hear. , “So… are you really telling me there’s no one around here that you’re into?” Zaia sounds almost disappointed. , “Please, come on, there’s no one around here worth mentioning, ok. Trust me, would I lie to you?” , Only I was the idiot to keep starving myself back then, in the hopes of catching a glimpse of her… the pain and suffering felt worth it… now? Now I feel like an idiot. and I’m ready to vent., My eyes blaze as I leave the apartment, slamming the door behind me as I walk down the hall, zipping my jacket up. , I’m Zade, I’m no **ing saint, but I’m not going to let a princess walk all over , 15 BONUS , 1. me. , I get on my bike, revving the engine before I zoom off into the night, refusing to slow down as I keep going faster… wishing that the thoughts in my head could be left behind… , The image of her washing her face and rinsing her mouth out hit the hardest. , Even if I had a feeling she was using me, it still stung. , Everything is a blur as I keep going, the smell of burning rubber strong in my nose, but I don’t stop… , Instead, I keep going faster with no destination in mind. , Where does a person like me go, anyway? , In the end, I have nothing. , Moonlight Muse , Author, Search the website on Google to access chapters of novels early and in the highest quality.