Chapter 178 - She Will Understand

"Rose...

" he finally replied and Roselyn forced a shy smile but John's emotionless facial expression didn't reassure her at all but made her even more worried and now familiar burning feeling in her stomach was suddenly back accompanied by nausea.

He didn't want children, it was clear after his facial expression. If he wanted he would have reacted differently. How could she be so silly to even think he would want kids when the timing was bad.

"You don't want a baby I kn..

" Roselyn murmured but John shushed her by placing his finger over her lips. He hinted a smile and forced his lips corners to slightly lift just to curve down once again.

"It's not that. It's that….

" He seemed like he didn't want to continue his sentence or that he was keeping something.

"What is it then?

" Roselyn asked trying to search for an answer in his desperate gaze which was just even more confusing than his tone of voice.

After a brief silence, he gazed back at her to state firmly,

"I would have felt thanks to my overdeveloped senses if you were, Rose.

"

Roselyn frowned her eyebrows and nodded even if his sentence left her confused and in disbelief, as she wasn't fully buying it. He surely had a point and maybe he would truly be able to feel it when a woman was pregnant but why didn't he take that option even into consideration?

Was he afraid? Roselyn wondered as she stared at him quietly for few seconds.

"How can you be so sure?

" Roselyn asked in a shy modulated tone of voice as she arched her eyebrows down.

"I just am. I can feel your breath when it intensifies I would have felt if you were pregnant.

" John replied in a sure tone of voice and offering a bright smile while he played with her hair by curling a lock around his finger.

"But would you be happy...

" Roselyn again tried to ask but John shushed her another time.

"You should rest now. I will bring you a towel wettened for your head. It could help to recover.

" John said smiling at her and Roselyn sighed, as she felt like he was purposely ignoring the matter.

It was quite obvious after that behavior that he didn't want to have a son but then why not tell her straightly? Instead of making up excuses or changing the matter?

It was probably the first time Roselyn saw him vulnerable and in difficulty, and probably also the first time he lied to her.

She didn't like to be lied to especially if it was so obvious and she would have preferred a painful truth rather than a lie said only not to hurt her.

He soon marched out of the room only to come back in few seconds grabbing a wettened towel and helping her to lift her to lay over the bed. John placed the towel on her forehead, he held her hand and was gazing at her so sweetly that Roselyn even forgot why she was mad at all.

However, did he had that effect on her?

Roselyn closed her eyes and fell asleep in a matter of few seconds before John took advantage of her sleeping to quickly reach Ethan who luckily was still there.

"Ethan!

" He screamed seeing his brother on the threshold of the door almost stepping outside, Ethan turned around and tilted his head shocked to see John calling him out of nowhere.

"Can we talk?

" John said before clearing his voice.

"Talk about what?

" Ethan whispered quizically walking toward John who headed toward the near room and closed the door behind them.

John didn't want his father to hear them talk, making Ethan even more concerned as he understood the matter was serious if John kept it from his father.

"Rose.. felt sick and fainted, she had the same symptoms as if she was pregnant,

" John said gazing at Ethan changing his facial expression into a confused one. Ethan shook his head puzzled,

"wasn't she a banshee?

"

John nodded,

"that's the point.

"

"It can't be then… Banshees can't have children.

" Ethan said cupping his chin and sighing.

John took a long breath, he heard what he also knew. The inability of fairies of life not to give life to sons was one of the few consequences that such great powers required and that's why he tried to change the matter. He didn't want to deceive Roselyn's desires nor he wanted to create an expectation in her just to see her disappointment when she would discover she is not able to give life but only to create it through her powers.

That's an additional reason why banshees are considered so rare and were extinguished soon. Because they weren't able to give life to other banshees.

"She thinks she is pregnant...

" John said covering his face between his hands and scoffing with anger.

"You didn't tell...

"

John interrupted Ethan before he could finish,

"no I didn't tell her.

" He nervously began to walk circularly around that big room that suddenly seemed so small compared to their problems.

"I didn't tell her!

" John spat,

"I didn't even know if she wanted to have sons!

"

"You should tell her,

" Ethan said but when he received a glower from John he gestured trying to express what he truly meant.

"I mean, I am not an expert and I never had a girlfriend yet I think it's better to know.

"

John pulled his hair back and scoffed, he knew he was right.

"But no woman in the entire world doesn't want children.

"

"Maybe it's just a thought. She in the future will understand that you two don't need children to be happier or improve the relationship.

" Ethan said gazing at John trying to be supportive but they both knew it wasn't a plausible consideration especially if John was supposed to give the Realm a successor.

"I hope so.

" John said finally pausing his nervous walking around the room to take a long breath.

"Don't worry okay?

" Ethan said as he caressed the back of John's shoulders.

"I am sure she will understand.

" Ethan comforted his brother.

**

Roselyn woke up, her headache slightly improved but she could still feel the annoying pulsing in the center of her forehead and her temples.

She got up from the bed and removed the towels that John placed over her forehead to reach the kitchen.

Only William was there, he was putting dishes over the table and as soon as he saw Roselyn he curved his lips in a gentle smile.

"May I ask where is John?

" Roselyn murmured but as soon as she finished her sentence she heard the noise of keys turning inside the door's locker and after few seconds John and Ethan walked out.

"Trust me, she will understa…

" Ethan said but as soon as he recognized Roselyn when he stepped out he bit his tongue to indulge the words to stop before escaping from the tip of his tongue.

Roselyn knitted her eyebrows and looked down at John before traveling her gaze to Ethan and then back to her husband.

"Who will understand and what?

" Roselyn asked curving her eyebrows quizzically and folding her arms. Where are they talking about her?