Chapter 644 - What’s the point of Going Back?
Actually, Chu Lui should be thankful for that car accident which caused Rainy to lose part of her memory. Even though she did not remember him anymore, she also forgot about his cruelty and his lack of saving when she was in trouble.
Gao Yi opened his eyes, and once he saw it was Xia Ruoxin, he smiled warmly at her.
“You’re here.”
“Yeah, I came to help you apply medication.” Xia Ruoxin brought the medical box over and placed it on her leg before putting Gao Yi’s hand on her knee. The rope burns on Gao Yi’s wrists have faded by quite a bit as the number of times his drug addiction acted up had decreased. From yesterday until now, it had not kicked in yet so there was no need to tie him up.
“I think it should be okay now.” Xia Ruoxin blew at Gao Yi’s wound habitually as she applied the medicine. Whenever Rainy had an injury, she did it the same way, too. What she did not know was the gratitude in Gao Yi’s gaze now.
The light blow on his wrist… he could feel her breath so close to him.
“Is it okay?”
“Yes, I think so.”
“Congratulations.” Xia Ruoxin smiled at him. She was genuinely happy for him as he had suffered for a few months, and finally, he had made it through and did not need to suffer again.
“Thank you.” Gao Yi also felt his eyes burning up. He raised his hand as usual to hug the woman’s shoulders to give her a form of support, but now, he realized that he was actually no longer her support but her burden instead.
Xia Ruoxin encircled his waist and found out that his waist was already very thin. With her current mood, she could not do it; but she knew that she could not push that man away.
She had never seen his weak side before, and he had also never shown his weakness.
This was a rare time so how could she just push him away? He was just like the old her who needed warmth, just like that.
However, she did not know that at that moment, Chu Lui was standing at the door. His face darkened just like the dead sea as if he was missing something. He was still holding what seemed like a present in his hand, but in the end, he kept the box in his pocket and closed the door. It was like shutting himself inside, away from the eyes of others.
Gao Yi’s drug addiction really did not act up again. It was the third day, and he had been really energetic so it seemed like he really did recover. If he was well, then some people… had no reason to stay any longer.
Just like Chu Lui, he did not even know what he was staying for himself.
It was a family of four.
Gao Yi’s mother, Gao Yi’s Xia Ruoxin, Gao Yi’s Rainy… there was not a single person that was Chu Lui’s.
“Ruoxin, I want to speak to you for a while.” He walked outside the kitchen and said this after waiting for quite some time.
“I don’t want to talk to you about anything.” Xia Ruoxin did not feel the need to talk to that man. Between them, all that needed to be said had been done. Now, the roads have turned; and there was nothing left to say anymore.
Just that, the man was like a pillar as if he would not go away if she did not agree.
She turned on the tap and washed away the detergents on her hand. Her long manicured fingers amongst the bubbles reflected her face from time to time.
After turning off the tap, she walked out and past Chu Lui, expressing her rejection through her body actions clearly.
If she did not understand that man so much, she would not have said anything else to him.
Both of them sat down like a conference in an office.
She was apprehensive about him.
She guarded against about him.
She was upset with him.
Her clear actions had shown her hatred towards him, but considering what he had done to her in the past, it was considered little.
Xia Ruoxin was not Chu Lui; she was not as cruel as him.
Chu Lui took out a cigarette and started smoking it. What he needed desperately was something that could calm his booming heart. Just that, every single time he met with that woman, he was never able to be calm or rational.
It was something so obvious, but why did he only realize it now? He cared about that woman much more than he thought he did. Just that, when he knew, when he understood; she was not willing and did not want it anymore.
Puff after puff, the smoke from the cigarette circled around. It was not the taste he was used to, but at least it could numb his feelings temporarily. Amid the smoke, the woman opposite seemed to not have changed a single bit. She sat there quietly and nicely until there was a point in time where he thought he could grab her, but when he stretched his hand out, he poked through his own smoke and found the scars between them that could never be healed.
“Can you go back with me?”
Suddenly, he extinguished the cigarette in his hands; and when the smoke covered his brows, his eyes started to tear a little.
Could she go back?
Could she?
“Go back to do what?” Xia Ruoxin held her hands on her knees tightly. “I thought we had already made it very clear.”
“I know.” Chu Lui smiled bitterly. “Just that, I want an answer. I want to try one more time so I came all the way here. Really, Ruoxin, I’m indignant. Can you give me another chance? I want to make it up to you; I really do. I want us to start anew.” He breathed in his smoke with his might. In the end, he used too much strength and choked himself, causing him to cough endlessly while Xia Ruoxin just sat there without moving as if the person in front of her was a stranger.
She looked simple as if she could fall with one push and break with one pinch. However, her personality was one that did not allow her to admit defeat; she would give her all into something to the point of no return.
If one asked her to roll, she would; but if one asked her to come back? Sorry, she had gone too far and could not come back.
That was why no matter what Chu Lui said, it was useless. In her heart, she had long given up on that man. Even if he lost his voice and beg her on his knees, she would never go back with him and start anew.
When a man’s heart toughened, it was cruel.
When a woman’s heart toughened, it was harsh.
“Mommy…” Rainy opened the door and waved to Xia Ruoxin from outside. “Mommy, come play with Rainy.”
“Okay,” Xia Ruoxin stood up. In her eyes, there were no signs of any emotions; and she smiled at her daughter lightly. To her, whatever the man had said made no impact at all.
She carried her daughter and opened the door to go outside. Her heartlessness still could not compare to the man behind her.
Chu Lui took out another cigarette and lit it up to smoke it again. In his eyes, there was a dark emptiness.
He, perhaps, had to leave this place.
When he left, Xia Ruoxin had no clue; but even if she knew, she would not have sent him off as she treated him as a mere stranger. To his surprise, Gao Yi came.