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nMarinette (Sun-hee)'s POV

nThere was a time when Marinette asked a boy who appeared on the other side of the iron bar in the darkroom she was locked in.

nTo her, he was everything. Every time that boy came to the backyard, he always ran toward the iron bar which was the only window for Marinette to look at the outside world.

nHe talked about his life, his happiness, his suffering, she listened to all of it.

nBut to the boy, she was just someone who he could relate to. In the end, he used her and kept her in the dark.

nIf she didn't leave the basement, she will always be his and no one else's.

nBut out of a sudden, Marinette finally got out of the basement. She was thrilled, the first thing she did was run and find that boy who she thought she could help because, in her perspective, he was such a miserable boy whose father abused him every day.

nBut the first day she met him in the outside world, it turned out everything was a lie.

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"Marinette...wait...listen to me.

" he grabbed her hand which eager to shake his hand off. She didn't look at his face because she was busy turning back hiding her tears, she turned away from him.

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"Don't...say anything...I need some time.

" the excuse she made up to leave him forever, she shook his hand off and left him forever.

nIn the story, after that Duke Asher moved on and fell in love with Diana. The next time they met, they were just a stranger and nothing less and nothing more.

nMy heart was aching at every second after I left him, it felt like a thorn had been stuck inside my heart. It felt really terrible.

nThe sun was already down, I walked to the roof through the window.

nIt felt really refreshing up there sitting on the roof of the house, I could see everything even the royal palace from that height.

nLittle by little, I felt like I lost myself bit by bit. Sun-hee, the high schooler was already drifting away every minute, it seemed like my existence started to disappear.

nIn my eyes, the beautiful scenery of this capital of this world was only the fantasy before I really died.

nOne day I disappeared from this world also, I'll just leave silently just like how I got into the world.

nOn the first day I woke up in this world, I could already see the time limit in front of me for how long I'll stay in this world because the body wasn't mine, and I didn't deserve anything belonging to Marinette.

nTime Remaining until Sun-hee is deleted: 1XX days.

nI got at least three months before I'll disappear. Marinette will be back, I hope she will have her happy ending.

nI didn't want to get my feeling attached to any of these characters in this novel, because once I did, there was nothing except tragedy awaited me.

nHaa...

nThe grape juice I brought along with me was really delicious. I read Marinette's diary while drinking the grape juice from one bottle to one bottle.

nI couldn't finish reading Marinette's diary since every time I read it, I couldn't move on from one page to one page.

nThere was some page ruined because of some liquid, I knew for sure what it was. It was her tears dropping on it while she wrote it.

nI rest my head on the roof reading the diary, it felt like reading Marinette's life in it.

nI never had a chance to write something like a diary back then, because I couldn't imagine how I would feel if the future me read it.

nWill the future me cry? Or will the future me smile while reading it since I endured all of those sufferings?

nIn the end, I died in the accident. I wasn't sure about me dying but if I survived, my body might be in a coma and my leg will be crippled since back then I couldn't feel my leg at all.

nThere was that guy who was crying over me, I wondered what happened to him.

nEven if I died, he might be griefing over me for one or two days and then move on. And for my father, I thought he might not even care since he hated me that much.

nMy eyes became teary, my lip was shaking, I covered my eyes with the diary.

n'He won't miss me...'

nI never had anyone to comfort me when I cried, when I was depressed, the only one that comforted me was my pillow which always soaked with my tears, and the blanket which I used to cover myself from the cruel world.

nI didn't have any love interest to comfort me like the female lead--

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"I was looking for you everywhere, why are you here??

" the voice of that guy took me out by surprise, I couldn't notice him thus my tears were still flowing on my face.

nI heard him taking a deep breath, I could sense his starting toward me.

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"She's already asleep?

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nI wasn't!

nWhy was he here out of a sudden? Wasn't he supposed to be staying at the hospital?

nSuddenly, he laid down beside me, I could feel our shoulders touch each other at that moment.

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"Why are you crying?

" that tenor voice coming out of his mouth struck deep into my mind, just when I was relieved for him not noticing me crying.

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"Some dust got into my eyes.

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"I see. Did you come here to look at the sunset?

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"It was already set when I arrived.

" he giggled.

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"I heard what happened today, are you still hurt anywhere?

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"It's bearable.

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nHe chuckled and got up sitting. By the time he did that, I already wiped all my tears from my face, I got up sitting beside him.

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"I'm sorry I failed my duty as your knight letting you get hurt like that.

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"What are you saying? You weren't there because you were at the hospital.

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"Still...

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nHis tone and all his actions confused me, I looked at his eyes which were shown feeling guilty, I tapped his shoulder lightly.

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"I am used to that, stop assuming everything is your fault.

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"...

" he stared at me for a bit and then turned his head to the other direction quickly.

nLater, he muttered,

"Thank you for taking me to the hospital.

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"Huh?

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nI giggled remembering how Aurora picked him up and carried him like a princess back then. He was too adorable and precious.

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"I wasn't the one--

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"But it was strange, how did you take me there? And when I asked someone, they're chuckling instead of telling me.

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nI also chuckled when I listened to him.

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"What happened really??

" his cheek started to turn red just like his hair.

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"The thing is...it was Aurora who carried you.

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"For real?

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nI nodded,

"Yes, for real.

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"But how?

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"There is a newspaper in my room, I'll show you when we get back.

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nWe were sitting there together on the roof, the sky was starting to get darker and darker as time went by.

nAnd I was also starting to feel tipsy, I didn't know the reason why.

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"Want some?

" I gave him the grape juice.

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"I didn't know you drink wine.

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"What? This is juice, the head chef told me that.

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"But...

" he took a close look at the bottle and turned his head at me smirking.

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"This is wine, it is an old wine at that. It said 100 years old over here.

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"You gotta be kidding me.

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nI thought it was the name of the juice.

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"You drink the rest.

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nIt was already the last bottle and I just knew it then.

nMy head feel a little dizzy, and my eyes were all drowsy.

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"Let's get back inside, you might catch a cold.

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"Just a little while, let me stay here.

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nI almost finished reading Marinette's diary anyway, there was only one more page left.

nOn the last page, there wasn't anything special. There was not a single thing about who Marinette loved although I really wanted to know that.

nBut when I looked at the love interest by my side, I also wondered who he loved too. His feeling wasn't described clearly in the novel.

nThe reader only assumed he was Diana's love interest because when he became Diana's knight later in the story, he could do anything for her even if it meant losing his life.

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"Why're you staring at me like that?

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"Do you have anyone you like?

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"Why do you want to know?

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"Nothing. I was curious.

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"I don't have anyone at the moment.

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"Seriously?

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"Yes, yes. I'm your knight, I have no time for something like that.

" his hair was flowing along with the air when he tried hard to look cool looking at the sky.

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"Have you ever had someone confess to you before?

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"...there were only love letters though.

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"Of course you have, you're a popular man after all.

" I muttered experience being drunk for the first time.

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"What about you?

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"I had one though.

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"???

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nI looked at his surprised face. I forgot I was Marinette, she just came out of the basement a while ago, how could someone like her have someone confessing to her.

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"My apology, I was rude.

" he noticed his surprised face of knowing I had someone who loved me might offend me, Flynn apologized.

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"Don't mind it. But that person only confessed to me and then disappeared the next day without hearing my reply.

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nHis name was Ye-Joon, it was the first time someone ever came up to me and confessed their feeling in my past life.

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"If he waited, what were you going to reply?

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"Who knows.

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nBut if it was me at that time, I might accept his love. I really didn't remember much about it at that time because it was only the painful memories.

nAnd around that time too, my friendship with Eun-Kyung ended.

nThere was another person before that guy too who had feelings for me, it was around the time when I was still a first-year.

nIt was at the back of the school, I accidentally overheard the conversation between that guy and Eun-Kyung.

nEun-Kyung was my friend way before that although I knew the reason why she befriended me, I tried to pretend I didn't care because she was the only person I had. I wasn't lonely because of her.

nBut...

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"She won't love you, if I know you confessing to her tomorrow, I won't let you get away.

" those were the words she said to that guy.

nI couldn't believe what she just said, and again I tried to turn a blind eye for that matter because our friendship was more important than my feeling.

nBut when the second guy confessed to me, I replied to him to give me some time because I wasn't sure of my feeling and I didn't want to hurt someone else's feelings toward me.

nBut who would have thought Eun-Kyung would do such a thing to me...

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"Leave the school, I don't know what your feeling about her is but you can't love her.

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"That is her life, you have nothing to do with her.

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"She's not rich as us, she's poor, her father abused her every day...

" I couldn't stand hiding in the corner listening to her any longer, I just left.

nI never talked to her again after that day. And time passed, we became strangers again.

nOn the purple roof,

nMarinette was asleep as soon as she said that, when she was sleeping, she let her guard down and the barrier around her dropped too.

nWhen I looked at her from behind, it always felt like there was a barrier surrounding her. That barrier was like a bubble, although it could break at any moment. When I looked at her, the bubble won't break, it always created a distance between us.

nShe won't let anyone in it, her tone when she asked me who I liked was simple, it was just out of curiosity but little did she know, it was such a difficult question for me to answer.

nYour face without your mask was pretty even with the scar you had, it was the first time I saw you without the mask.

nYour expression when you were talking to me, just by hearing it my heart was throbbing.

nWhy did I feel like you'll disappear at any moment after saying that? If you disappear, my mission to look over you will finish and I didn't have to pretend to be a knight like this too.

nI was starting to wonder, 'Do I really want you to disappear?'

nTo be continued....!

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