n

nYe Qing Xin finishes her question about asking for money. She feels a bit upset.

nThat time she is unable to restrain her emotion to say it. After she is done, she starts to be more clear-headed.

nAlthough her hope to borrow money from Ye Jun Dong is throughly shattered, she has thought to borrow money from Jing Bo Yuan, but she thinks she should do it in more cautious and respectful words.

nBut that time she asks with her sobbing voice.

nShe doesn’t know how will Jing Bo Yuan see her.

nIf she doesn’t aware of her feeling toward him, then she wouldn’t care how he sees her action. But now, she doesn’t want he belittles her.

nAt last, Jing Bo Yuan also doesn’t answer whether he will lend it to her or not. He just asks her whereabout.

nYe Qing Xin doesn’t know about his intention but she just answers: “I’m at home.”

n“T city, Jiu An town.” Jing Bo Yuan answers it precisely.

nYe Qing Xin is startled.

n“Chief Jing, how can you know it?”

nShe never tells him before.

nJing Bo Yuan doesn’t answer, he just says: “Don’t be afraid, wait for me.” He says it and hangs up.

nThose words is simple but it brings a indescribable and powerful influence for her. It warms her heart.

nIs she afraid?

nYes, she is afraid. No matter how calm her demeanor is. She is just a twenty years old girl. Encountering those unforeseen events, with efforts from others to make things hard for her, how can she not feel afraid?

nIt’s just she is good at hiding it.

nShe doesn’t want her attacker knows that she is week, she doesn’t want the people beside her to be worried too.

nAll people think that she is stubborn and tough. It’s only Jing Bo Yuan that could see her heart.

nIt’s just…..

nWait for him?

nYe Qing Xin bits her lips, her eyes are filled with water.

nWhat did he mean?

nWill he come for her?

nWill he?

nHe is at a high place, a popular man, can he rush to T city for an ordinary woman like her?

nYe Qing Xin is startled for a long time, then she stands up. She carries her backpack and returns to the hospital.

nSong Jiu notices her. Song Jiu’s face is full of worried, she talks to Ye Qing Xin with her small voice: “Auntie Zhou coughed up blood before, Xin Xin, will she….”

n“No!” Ye Qing Xin cuts her off, she determines: “My Ma will get better.”

nSong Jiu just swallows her words and doesn’t say anything futher.

nYe Qing Xin sits down near the bed and clutches Zhou Qiao Qiao’s hand. She watches her Ma.

nShe is thinking about what Ye Jun Dong said to her. She feels complicated.

nWhen she was young, she frequently heard their neighbor mocked her mother: at that time you cancelled you marriage with Tai Zheng Ting, you insisted to marry to that penniless Ye Jun Dong, what is the result of your decision? You are dumped by him? Even your parents dislike you now, at last you depend on Tai Zheng Ting to live, you should regret it right?

nThat year what did happen?

nHow can she and Ye Qing Guo are not Ye Jun Dong’s kid?

nXiao Guo is Tai Zheng Ting’s son, then what about her?

nSuddenly Zhou Qiao Qiao coughs up blood again.

n“MA!” Ye Qing Xin is panic, she says calmly to Song Jiu: “Help me to take care of her, I’ll go and beg the doctor…”

nAt this moment. The door is pushed open. Several doctors and nurses come inside.

nYe Qing Xin and Song Jiu are at loss. The doctors and nurses start to push the bed to move Zhou Qiao Qiao.

nYe Qing Xin stops them hurriedly: “What do you guys want to do?”

nHearing her question, the head of the doctors smiles politely and says to her: “Don’t worry. We don’t have bad intention. It’s just this room is too small, we will move her to the better room. Then we will arrange the best doctor and give her the best treatment and medicine.”

nYe Qing Xin, Song Jiu: “………”

nAll of the doctors and nurses are so fast, they move Zhou Qiao Qiao to the high cla.s.s VIP room and gives her IV drip. Two nurses stay in the room to take care of her.

nAfter two hours, the door is knocked.

nYe Qing Xin opens the door.

nOutside, there’re several men with suit standing.

nYe Qing Xin is at loss.

nShe recognizes one of them, Lu Jie’s father, Lu Jian. He is S city mayor.

nLu Jian comes with several other men. At the back of him is the director of the hospital, Wu Feng and several doctors.

nAll of them are smiling.

nWu Feng: Mayor Lu, this is the one that you want to meat, she is Zhou Qiao Qiao’s……” He is clearly nervous.

nTwo hours ago, Wu Feng suddenly received a call from the major of the city and several leaders then they wanted to visit a patient called Zhou Qiao Qiao. They asked him to be ready. He was so surprised and called the hospital to arrange Zhou Qiao Qiao.

nWu Feng looks at Zhou Qiao Qiao confusedly and looked at Ye Qing Xin, he is curious what is happening.

nLu Jian doesn’t really look at Zhou Qiao Qiao, his attention is focused on Ye Qing Xin.

nYe Qing Xin only knows Lu Jian so she greets him: “Mayor Lu, hi.”

nLu Jian smiles.

nHe looks at her and says comfortingly: “Your mother will be okay, no need to worry.”

nYe Qing Xin is startled and thanks him: “Thank you for your consideration, Mayor Lu.”

nShe is not servile or overbearing.

nLu Jian nods and looks at Wu Feng. He says coldly to him: “You should take a good care of Ms Ye’s mother.” His tone is somewhat threatening.

nWu Feng is scared, but he doesn’t show it. He just nods: “Of course, of course!”

nLu Jian just says another thing to Ye Qing Xin: “Take a good care of your mother.” Then he leaves.

nAfter he left, Song Jiu flees to Ye Qing Xin’s side and boasts loudly: “Ay it’s the mayor. Tell me, how can this mayor be so sensitive to people’s need? He came over at this late night and ordered the head of hospital to take a good care of Auntie Zhou? Isn’t it clear that he is helping us? Is it because you asked Wen Ze Yan for help?”

nSong Jiu is thinking hard: “It’s possible. Except Wen Ze Yan, who can move Mayor Lu to help?”

nYe Qing Xin just sits down beside the bed quietly and clutches her mother’s hand.

nIn her heart, Ye Qing Xin knows clearly that even though Wen Ze Yan begs Mayor Lu to help her, Lu Jian will not do it.

nIt should be Jing Bo Yuan.

nIt definitely is him.

nYe Qing Xin holds her phone and wants to call him. But when she sees the time, it’s already two o’clock. She thinks that he should be asleep at this time.

nShe suddenly doesn’t want to wake him up.

nDon’t how does he look like when he is sleeping?

nHe shouldn’t look so serious right?

nSuddenly.

n“Xin Xin!” Song Jiu pats Ye Qing Xin’s shoulder: “What are you thinking that you are smiling so bright!”

nYe Qing Xin rubs her face: “Am I?”

nIs she smiling?

nSong Jiu narrows her eyes at her: “Yes, you are. Are you thinking about someone? You are smiling so sweetly. You are thinking about someone.” Song Jiu screams: “Ah! Are you thinking about Wen Ze Yan?”

nYe Qing Xin rolls her eyes. She pokes Song Jiu’s head: “What are you thinking?”

nSong Jiu pats her shoulder: “It’s not good…..” She sits down beside Ye Qing Xin: “Actually I always want to say something to you. That Wen Ze Ya, even though he is quite good-looking, but I always think that he is lacking of something when he is standing beside you. Maybe it’s so called “not compatible”, so that time you guys broke up, I feel it’s reasonable.”

nYe Qing Xin smiles: “It’s in the past, let’s not talk about it.”

n“Em, I’ll not.” Song Jiu says: “Our Xin Xin, in the future will be married to a tall and handsome man. Also rich and capable good man!”

nYe Qing Xin thinks about Jing Bo Yuan’s face when she hears about Song Jiu’s words. Her face turns red.

n“How can it be?”

n“Em? What did you say? How can it impossible?”

nYe Qing Xin bits her lips, she shakes her head and doesn’t say anything more.

nSong Jiu yawns and goes to the sofa to sleep.

nThe room turns quiet.

nYe Qing Xin feels that the problems that she encountered these days are like dreams.

nAll the bad things turn good now.

nIt’s just she doesn’t really understand what Jing Bo Yuan said before. “Wait for me.” What did he mean?

nWhy that man always use simple words?

nThe next day.

nThere’s a great sensation in T city.

nAfter several years able to move unhindered, a deputy leader of T city who is part of Li family, is being dismissed.

nIt is said that Li family privately does a drug business. In the whole family there’s no one clean, except that unconscious ten years old kid.

nYe Qing Xin is surprised.

nHow can …… it be so coincidental.

nIt’s too outrageous.

nBut she doesn’t want to think too much about it, it’s unrelated to her.

nShe also hears that the unconscious boy of Li family has woke up.

nIt’s a good news for Ye Qing Xin.

nWith that boy be conscious means that Ye Qing Guo can easily come out from the mental hospital.

nIn the mid-afternoon, Zhou Qiao Qiao wakes up but she is still weak, she keeps on coughing, sometimes with blood.

nThe doctor checks her and couldn’t find what is her illness.

nYe Qing Xin seems to have a bad premonition.

nAt three o’clock, Ye Qing Xin gets a call from the police station. They said they had checked on the case. That boy fell down by himself, and also the injured police did not hurt, he was being orderedd by Li Liang to frame Ye Qing Guo. Ye Qing Guo is innocent. He asked her to pick Ye Qing Guo up.

nYe Qing Xin is startled.

nThese problems are solved one by one in a quick speed. She is too surprised.

nUp till she takes Ye Qing Guo to Zhou Qiao Qiao’s fce, she still feels it’s too surreal. In just a short one week. She experiences a lot of things, and the matters are easily solved.

nShe feels so thankful when she looks at her mother is hugging her little brother.

nHer mother and her little brother, the two that she loves, finally returns to her side.

nBut she feels a slight emptiness.

nAfter that call, Jing Bo Yuan doesn’t send her any news.

nDidn’t he say to let her wait for him.

nShe knows clearly she shouldn’t be having fantasy, but she is expecting him.

nAt night ten thirty.

nAs usual he sends her the goodnight message.

nIt let Ye Qing Xin questions whether he has set up alarm to message her.

nYe Qing Xin reads the message then she stands up to go out of the room. She looks for a quite place and dials his number.

nIt’s answered.

n“Hi, Xin Xin.”

nYe Qing Xin’s heart beats so fast.

nShe purses her lips: “Chief Jing, my little brother is being released. Also Mama, also gets the best treatment. All of this….. is it your doing?”

nHow can this thing be so fast and smooth.

nYe Qing Xin bits her lips and draws Jing Bo Yuan’s name on the window.

nShe doesn’t say anything, he also stays quiet.

nHe is waiting for her to speak up. He is so patient with her.

nAfter a while, Ye Qing Xin says half true and half false, half silly half awake. “Last night you said to let me wait for you, I have waited for you a day, where are you?”

nThis words are vague.

nJing Bo Yuan asks her: “You want to meet me?”

nYe Qing Xin replies “Em.”

nJing Bo Yuan says: “Okay, wait fifteen minutes for me.”

nYe Qing Xin hangs up. She strokes her burning face.

nShe goes back to Zhou Qiao Qiao’s room and says to Zhou Qiao Qiao that she will be going out for a while. Then she comes out from the hospital lobby.

nThe weather outside is cold, but her heart is so burning hot.

nOn the other side.

nJing Bo Yuan hangs up and returns to the private room.

nInside the private room, there is T city mayor, T city county leader and severals other important people. All the people are smiling when Jing Bo Yuan comes back: “Is it Mrs Jing too worry about Chief Jing, that she calls to check up on you?”

nJing Bo Yuan doesn’t deny. He looks like he admits it.

nHe raises up his gla.s.s and says to everyone: “I’m sorry. I need to do handle some problems. I’ll drink this as my apology.”

nHe says it and drinks it all.

nAll of them say: “We are not dare to accept it.” Then they stand and drink a beer too.

nJing Bo Yuan puts down his gla.s.s and says: “Regarding the contributions, I already let my a.s.sistant to handle the agreement. All of you please review it. If there’s no problem, tomorrow let’s sign it.”

nLuo Feng — pa.s.ses the agreement.

nThe time Jing Bo Yuan and Luo Feng left.

nThey all read through the agreement and so surprised to see the amount of the donation.

nOne of them sighed; “Jing City’s rich man is really different. The time they donate, they donate a year of our revenue!”

nLu Jian is happy: “This will make our city be the strategic area.”

nOne of them suddenly thinks about something and asks: “Mayor Lu, are you the one that invite him over? What trick did you use? How can you find that honorable donator?”

nLu Jian: “Will you believe if I say that he comes by himself?”

n“I don’t believe it.”

nLu Jian says: “it’s better that you believe it. It’s like a story where a hero saves a woman. This boss couldn’t help to a beautiful woman that is in our T city. She has difficulty in T city so I help her, this could be his repay for a favor…..”

nYe Qing Xin stays outside for ten minutes.

nJing Bo Yuan calls her.

n“I am the parking area.”

nYe Qing Xin replies “em.”

nShe lowers her head and examines herself. Her clothes are clean, her hair…. okay. This period of time she is under pressure. She already forgets when the last time she took a shower.

nShe just styles her hair in ponytail. This night, no one will be aware that she hasn’t washed her hair right?

nYe Qing Xin takes a deep breath and walks to the parking area.

nWith a glance, she could recognize Jing Bo Yuan’s white land rover. It stands out from other cars.

nShe comes over. Her heart beats quicker every time she takes a step closer.

nWhen she almost reaches the car, the driver’s door opens. Jing Bo Yuan comes out. That man is wearing a white shirt and black suit.

nShe greets him: “Chief Jing, thank you.”

nJing Bo Yuan raises his hand…..

nYe Qing Xin immediately realizes what he wants to do. She responds so quickly and takes a step back. She avoids his touching.

nJing Bo Yuan’s hand stops mid air.

nYe Qing Xin knows that her response is too excessive. It should be hurtful for his pride. Especially a man like Jing Bo Yuan. He should use to everyone’s obedience.

nBut she also doesn’t do it in purpose.

nIf she doesn’t avoid it, wouldn’t he rub her oily hair and his hand will turn oily?

nYe Qing Xin is upset and her face turns red.

nThe atmosphere turns awkward.

nThe next moment, Ye Qing Xin speaks up: “That…. are you hungry? Let me treat you a late -night snack?”

nJing Bo Yuan retreats his hand and puts it inside his pocket.

nHe is calm when he hears her question: “What do you want to eat?”

nYe Qing Xin thinks about it: “I know a great sticky rice dumpling restaurant nearby. It’s very good. Do you want to try it?”

nJing Bo Yuan doesn’t express his opinion and just asks: “Is it far?”

nYe Qing Xin: “Not far, we can walk.”

n“Wait for me a while.” Jing Bo Yuan goes back to his car and takes his car key. He locks his car and comes back to Ye Qing Xin’s side. “Let’s go.”

nYe Qing Xin’s heart is so excited. Her face is blushing.

nThis is the first time she walks side by side with him.

nShe watches their shadow, it’s like a happy couple.

nYe Qing Xin watches it and smiles. She doesn’t dare to smile too bright. She tried to control it by biting her lips.

nShe doesn’t know her act of biting her lips is so attractive.

nJing Bo Yuan watches her.

nAfter five or six minutes, they arrive at a snack street.

nThere’re various of snack stands.

nThe road is narrow. Ye Qing Xin almost be knocked over by someone. Jing Bo Yuan naturally hugs her shoulder and protects her.

nA woman is walking and eating, she pa.s.ses both of them and is pushed by someone from behind. Her skewer almost pokes on Ye Qing Xin.

nYe Qing Xin hasn’t responded yet, Jing Bo Yuan just pulls her and uses his hand to protect her. That skewer makes Jing Bo Yuan’s whole hand to be full of soya sauce.

n“I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” That woman just lowers her head and apologizes.

nShe raises her head to look at Jing Bo Yuan.

nJing Bo Yuan frowns and takes out his handkerchief. He wipes his hand and throws the handkerchief away.

nHe hugs Ye Qing Xin and continues to walk.

nYe Qing Xin purses her lips and feels quite pleased.

nThe feeling of being protected by Jing Bo Yuan is great.

n“Is it still far?” They have walked fro a long time, but he looks that Ye Qing Xin has intention to stop so he asks.

nYe Qing Xin points at certain place: “There it is.”

nThat restaurant is small and only have two tables.

nThe tables and stools look very oily. An old grandpa is cooking the stick sweet dumpling with both of his dark hands.

nJing Bo Yuan stands in front f the door. He watches the shop without any expression. He doesn’t show intention to get in.

nYe Qing Xin smiles at him: “Chief Jing, let’s get in.”

nJing Bo Yuan frowns, “You always eat in a place like this?”

nEven though the old grandpa is old but he has a great hearing skills, “Young man, don’t just judge the place. I dare to say, in this 5 km area, my restaurant is selling the best sticky sweet dumpling. It’s sweet and not greasy. Your girlfriend frequently comes her to eat it, you are her new boyfriend right? You guys are so compatible!”

nJing Bo Yuan doesn’t say anything, his frown is gone. He just gets in.

nYe Qing Xin is blushing. At first she wants to explain but looking at how quiet Jing Bo Yuan is. She just stays quiet.

nJing Bo Yuan looks at the chair for a second, when he is about to sit down…….

nYe Qing Xin hurriedly takes a tissue from the table and helps him to wipe it. Then says: “Chief Jing, please sit down.”

nJing Bo Yuan looks at her face a while then sits down.

nYe Qing Xin sits down on the opposite side of him. She says to the old grandpa: “Two bowl of sticky sweet dumpling.”

nOld Grandpa says happily: “okay.”

nYe Qing Xin laughs. Suddenly she notices that Jing Bo Yuan is looking at the water traces on the table. She naturally takes a tissue and wipes it for him.

nHe keeps on watching her.

nUntil Ye Qing Xin feels unease.

nShe raises her head and looks at him. She wants to break the silence between them. She says: “Chief Jing, thank you that you can solve all our family difficulties in just one day! You are really great!”

nIt’s her sincere words.

nJing Bo Yuan: “You should tell me earlier that you are in difficult situation.”

nYe Qing Xin lowers her head. She says: “I…. I’m afraid that you’ll look down at me……”

nShe waits for a while, but Jing Bo Yuan doesn’t answer her.

nYe Qing Xin raises her head, her hand is wrapped by a large hand of his.

nShe turns stiff.

n“I will not.”

n“The sticky sweet dumpling is here!” The old grandpa places two bowls of it on the table.

nYe Qing Xin takes her hand back.

nJing Bo Yuan looks so collected.

nLike nothing really happens.

nYe Qing Xin doesn’t dare to raise her head gain. She starts eating the snack one by one.

nWhen she is done, she looks over that Jing Bo Yuan doesn’t eat. He just watches her with a smile.

nYe Qing Xin blinks.

n“Why aren’t you eating?”

nJing Bo Yuan answers: “I don’t like sweet-food.”

nA person that loves sweet as Ye Qing Xin, she couldn’t understand how can someone doesn’t like sweet things.

nShe takes the bowl from Jing Bo Yuan’s front and just eats it.

nAnyway they need to pay for the other bowl, she shouldn’t waste it.

nBut with Jing Bo Yuan’s gaze on her, she feels a bit embarra.s.sed. She then takes one dumpling and raises to his front. “Do you want to try one? It’s really good.”

nAt first, he already says that he doesn’t like sweet things, she also just do it for exchange pleasantries.

nWho knows.

nJing Bo Yuan just moves closer and opens his mouth to eat that dumpling.

nYe Qing Xin is startled.

nDidn’t he say that he doesn’t like sweet things?

nShe peeks at her and watches that he enjoys it. How can he not like it?

nShe looks at the remaining two sweet dumplings on her bowl and takes one and feeds him. Just like that she feeds him three sweet dumpling.

nWith her chopsticks.

nAt first it’s Ye Qing Xin that said that she will treat him, but at last it’s Jing Bo Yuan that pays for them.

nOn the way home, they are walking side by side.

nWhen they are walking, without mindfulness, Ye Qing Xin’s shoulder touches his from time to time. A man’s shoulder is too st.u.r.dy and powerful. Ye Qing Xin’s mood become indescribable.

nIt’s worthy to rely on him.

nIf he is willing to be her rock.

nBut Jing Suo Suo said that Jing Bo Yuan is dating.

nYe Qing Xin just controls herself. She doesn’t dare to do anything too daring.

nBefore she fed him, it’s already overstep a boundary.

nJust leave it as her only memory of their togetherness.

nYe Qing Xin slowly tries to distance herself from him.

nJing Bo Yuan notices about it and watches her.

nVery quickly they arrive at the lobby of the hospital.

nYe Qing Xin once again thanks him: “Chief Jing’s huge kindness, I’ll remember it forever. Thank you. Next time if there’s a chance, I definitely will repay you.”

nJing Bo Yuan looks at her: “Now you have a chance to repay me, do you want it?”

nYe Qing Xin is startled: “What kind of chance?”

nJing Bo Yuan bends lightly and clutches her hand. “Devote one’s life, be my girlfriend, what do you think?”

nBe my girlfriend.

nYe Qing Xin has heard these words for so many times. But she never feels these words are so touching.

nYe Qing Xin is at loss.

nJing Bo Yuan says again: “you also like me, right? Since we like each other, then let’s be together.”

nAt first, he doesn’t want to be so quick. But he feels both of them are attracted to each other so it’s natural.

nHe clearly knows that she also likes him, but he notices that she tries to put some distance between them? He doesn’t like it.

nYe Qing Xin looks at Jing Bo Yuan with her shining eyes: “I be your girlfriend, then what about your current girlfriend?”

nLuckily, she is not being muddled-headed because she is so happy to hear it.

nShe remembers the important problem.

nJing Bo Yuan looks at her: “My current girlfriend? This period of time you purposely try to distance yourself from me, because of this reason?”

nYe Qing Xin purses her lips and nods.

nJing Bo Yuan pinches her cheek lightly: “Stupid girl, when do you see that I have a girlfriend beside me? I don’t know where did you hear it? But you should feel it, if I have a girlfriend, how can I treat you like this?”

nSo he means that he doesn’t have a girlfriend?

nYe Qing Xin feels happy. Her eyes is really dazzling now.

nWithout any hesitation, she clutches his hand and smiles brightly. She says bravely: “Then I am willing to devote my life and give my heart to you.”

nJing Bo Yuan looks at her and smiles.

nThey both look at each other like there only two of them left in the world.

nAfter a while.

nJing Bo Yuan strokes her cheeks and says: “Go back and sleep early. I will be T city for this period of time. You should call me when you are free. I’ll pick you up.”

nYe Qing Xin stands near the window to let the wind blows the hotness of her face.

nYe Qing Xin understands that because now they are in love, he means to go on date.

nHer face blushes.

nShe feels today is her happiest day.

nFirst, her mother can be treated, then Li family gets the consequences of their bad action, Xiao Guo comes out, now…..

nShe is Jing Bo Yuan’s girlfriend.

nIt’s too perfect.

nHer phone rings.

nIt’s Jing Bo Yuan’s call.

nYe Qing Xin answers.

n“Hi?”

n“You aren’t sleeping yet?”

nYe Qing Xin laughs sweetly: “Em.”

n“Go sleep quickly, it’s not healthy to stay up late.”

n“Goodnight.”

n“Goodnight.”

nShe hangs up and pats her burning face. She tries to calm down and returns to her mother’s sickroom.

nInside the room.

nYe Qing Guo is sleeping on the caregiver’s bed. His sleeping posture is bad. From time to time, he is giggling “hehe…”

nZhou Qiao Qiao looks Ye Qing Xin and asks her: “Where did you go? It’s too late.”

n“I went to have dinner with my friend.”

n“O.” Zhou Qiao Qiao says: “Go to the bathroom to have shower. Then sleep early. Sorry to trouble you this period fof time.”

nYe Qing Xin doesn’t have toiletries here, so she just washes herself.

nThe time she comes out, she notices that Zhou Qiao Qiao gets off the bed to pick up Ye Qing Guo’s blanket off the floor.

nYe Qing Xin helps her; “ma, just let me do it. Lay down and have a rest.”

nZhou Qiao Qiao smiles: “I’m okay.”

nYe Qing Xin doesn’t agree: “now you are weak, how can you be okay? In the future don’t just get off the bed as you wish. There’re two nurses there, just let them to help you.”

nBoth of the nurses are sleeping.

nZhou Qiao Qiao rubs Ye Qing Xin’s head: “Okay, I’ll obey Xin Xin.”

nYe Qing Xin helps Zhou Zhou Qiao to retun to her bed. She covers her Ma with the blanket.

nZhou Qiao Qiao suddenly says: “Xin Xin, do you think that I am biased?”

nYe Qing Xin answers: “No.”

n“Stupid kid.” Zhou Qiao Qiao says: “I even from time to time, thinks that I am deserved to be hated. You have a great future and youth, but I am too selfish that I simply hold you back……..”

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